tiistai 9. elokuuta 2011

A drunken note at 2 am on a Tuesday night. (Sorry for the bad spellingses and grammarses)

About traveling

I cannot say for other people but I feel as if traveling has lost its initiative meaning. Now days, the time of Facebook and Internet and super fast information transport, life has a new meaning. Everything has to be fabulous and exciting and happy. Everything we do has to have an o-m-g factor or else it is useless. When I graduate I have to get the best job with the greatest salary and also the best husband and the most well-behaved kid but also have the most successful career and look fabulous while doing it. And to the point I am making, I have to go to the most exotic places and experience the most bizarre things and Do things No-One has done before. After my life changing trip I have to tell about it to my friends in a modest fashion so I don't seem too arrogant about it. But in real life I am because I know my friends should also experience these awe-inspiring things I have experienced. Because I have traveled and Seen things. Wonderful things.

Personally I travel for two things. First of all I want to see many awesome things this world has to offer. So in a way I am the same as most of the travelers. Secondly I want to travel so I can be free. Let me explain.

A few years ago I was in Langkawi, Malaysia, and I took a boat trip with some other tourists. After a while an Italian person asked me 'Why are you smiling?'. The reason why this stuck out was that I hadn't talked or looked at anyone for 10 minutes. I was just happy and I was smiling because I felt it. The reason I was happy was that I felt free.

Second example is from a train from Vienna to Salzburg. I was reading the Alchemist (by Paolo Coelho) and I almost cried. I felt my Maktub (road of life) and freedom. I felt happiness.

I know a lot of travelers get the same feeling and it is the reason why traveling has become so popular. You loose your background, in a sense you loose yourself (not like Eminem) and become one with the road. Nothing matters but the way you are going and that you are on that road. When you are moving you are free and you are flying.

So this is the reason I travel. I love to experience new cultures and see new things but mostly I want to exploit the road. I do feel extremely privileged for the things I have seen and the amazing people I have met but right now I only miss the feeling of being off the ground and being able to inhale. Anyone who knows about anxiety knows how hard breathing can be. Traveling is my drug for it. Traveling is one of the most expensive drugs and I am happy to pay for it.

I guess I am writing this because some people are telling me to go somewhere. I want to go, I really do, but I have other things I have to do first. When I go I will smile again (and probably not realize it) but right now I have to stay still. I have to finish school and I have to figure a plan for myself. I want to make sure I can keep my supply going  before I leave. I want secure my living before I throw it away. And so on and so forth. I hope you understand

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