Thursday morning

Quickie I

I frigging loooove Charlyne Yi 

Ramblings

Here's a quick update: I have been on a vacation for almost a month now but there's really that much to report. I do have few awesome things planned for this blog, like a vacation montage and a song, so almost regular updates will return. I can partly promise you this. There can be exceptions though

Most of the time I have been nerding it out. I bought Alice: Madness Returns and I am super psyched! And excited. And thrilled. And weted my bed three times. I actually did see nightmares last night so the game is already freaking me out after an hour of playing. There hasn't been anything scary happenings yet but I feel them coming. Oh yeah.

 

Also I heard about a masquarade ball called 'Labyrinth of Jareth' which woke the little larper in me. I really want to create a super crazy fantasy dress and wear it to a ball. There is a roleplaying convencion called Ropecon happening in August and they actually have some sort of a ball happening so I might go there. Right now I'm planing creating a druid-goth- folklore like dress with crazy details with a simple outlook. Oh man I looooove designing dresses (making them is another story though)

So next week I shall go back to work and return to my normal shallow life of fashion, pictures, music, and world coming to ending due to the climate change and the world politics. In the meantime, here's some pictures of 2011. Laterz!

Aimo Katajamäki's workshop's window

6-1

A snake! It is not a fake! Honestly!

First wash

I'm making postcards

Pictures!

* * * WARNING * * * RANT * * * WARNING * * * RANT * * * WARNING * * *

I take a lot of pictures. Not as many as a some but definetly more than others. I used to take pictures of my friends and people around me until I started hearing 'I don't want to be in pictures' 'I like to be in pictures but not on Facebook' 'I want to be in Facebook pictures and but don't tag me in these ones' 'I love to be in pictures and I am going to be in all of your pictures'  Usually when I take pictures of the later kind of person the person of some other kind comes in to the same picture. What am I supposed to do then? I was planning on making a list of my friends and noting their desire or nondesire to be photographed and then check the list before taking the picture. By the time I've done this the moment has passed and everybody has moved on and FOR FUCKS SAKE! 

So I decided not to put pictures of people on Facebook. This decision did not help because in the addition of writing the list I had to explain and ensure that these pictures will not be published anywhere in the Internet. After I had got my point across the moment had passed (again) and taking pictures became really awkward.

So now I have a new rule: no taking pictures of any people unless they are 100 % Facebook-tag approved. Even then I rarely put them on Facebook. Just to be safe.

* * * RANT OVER * * *

Due to my latest breakdown I went for a long walk and took a few pictures this weekend. It is nice when something bad makes you do something good. By the way listen to a song called 'Something Good Can Work' by Two Door Cinema Club. I'll put the link in the end.

P.S I respect peoples privacy and that is the reason why I stopped taking pictures of humans. It is understandable when one does not want one's pictures to be published in the Internet especially since we have witnessed many of unflattering pictures being posted all around it. I bet we are all a bit traumatized by bad judgement. I just find it annoying when I feel like I have to restrain my favourite hobby.

Honesty

Sometimes the hardest thing is to be honest to oneself. I could say I won the Golden Long Nose Statue a long time ago. I thought to myself 'I'm alright it is only in my head'. Well when your head is in the wrong, then where does it leave you.

I planned to make this blog a light hearted one but I feel writing this is really important to me right now. I want to be honest, I want to shout until I have no voice anymore. I am not alright, there is something wrong. There has been something wrong for many years and it is something that I haven't easily shown.

I suffer from anxiety and panic. Panic is something I rarely experience but anxiety has been by partner for a very long time. I have suffered from depression but mostly not in a severe level. Recently I got really tired of fighting this alone so I got help. Well I called a number and got some pills and hopefully will start figuring this out with a professional. (I'm absolutely sure that this person will say that I'm only a spoiled brat and should just take a hold of myself.)

I don't want pity or peoples shoulder just because they feel they need to be a good friend. Most of people don't know about this and I still consider them as good people and my friend. The reason why I am writing this is that I wanted to be honest. I really want to start writing again and this is the only thing I could think of. I don't want this blog to become a self pity blog or a story of a person who goes to therapy. There can be mentions about it though, so be warned. This blog is about me and my interests and my head is one of them.

10 reasons why I hate Jennifer Lopez's new single 'On The Floor'

At first I thought the use of the classic Lambada tune would bring on the rampage but I actually kind of like it; it's a good tune and how they remixed it isn't half bad. It's the rest of the song that sucks. Here are the 10 reasons why On the Floor makes me want to never 'go on the floor' or any disco-club-dance place EVER:

1. First and foremost: the phrase 'on the floor is repeated every 5 second

2. In one of her looks in the video she looks like a doll. It is too weird even to describe.

3. Her other look is a drag queen (an offensively bad one)

4. The beat is really cheap.

5. The whole song is cheap. It's like any single song you would hear on the floor

6. I don't need anybody to tell me to get on the floor. I'll go when something better is on.

7. What does she mean 'get on the floor', anyway. Am I on the ceiling? On the walls? Hovering mid-air?

8. The phrase 'on the floor' is mentioned 2-frigging-7 times in the song

9. 24 of these times it is done by J-Lo. I COUNTED

10. This song doesn't make me want to shake my booty, join the dance floor, paaarteeey, move, jiggle, stomp, jump, nothing. Actually that was a like. It makes me want to do all that. In another place.

11. Oh yeah I have more to complain. The figgin' song has a Wikipedia article that is longer than the article about Climate Change. Yes, I checked.

12. According to the Wikipedia article the producers wanted to show J-Lo's 'Latina heritage and pays homage to her career-beginnings as a dancer'. You get the Latina by copying stuff from others and show J-Lo dancing in the video. Wait. Was she dancing? She was moving her hip from left to right and sometimes her head in similar fashion. I guess that is a form of a dance. Nothing to be proud of though since I could do the same and thrust me, I'm no dancer.

12. When I think about it Lambada is the best part of the song. I would much rather listen to that 15 times a day than this. Alas I cannot for they play this song 100 times a day at my workplace and all I can do is complain.

13. The cover of the single is in a totally different style than the music video. The video is darker and more about some serious badass partying but the single cover is very light and more.. lets say upbeat. 

14. Although I OCD about my hatred of the song I do understand some people might tolerate it. What I don't understand why it is so popular and LIKED. 

15. As a final note I will justify second and the third argument. The music video gives us a visual representation of the song. Now every time I hear 'On the Floor' I have two images in my head: J-Lo with freakishly large eyes and this:

16. It is a bad song.